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To be updated each month with a comment and edited as threads are added.
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Hey guys! You can usually reach me on AIM at 'meradrinnykrel' or on plurk at [plurk.com profile] heliel; the former I'm basically logged into 24/7, so even if I miss you because I'm doing something/asleep, I'll get back to you ASAP!

Also, if you have any problems with the way I'm playing, or with anything I do re: Lana/Fan, feel free to comment here! Comments are screened and unscreened by permission, Anonymous is on (or should be), ip logging is on (but only used in the event something really atrocious happens, of course).
flickeringreflection: (♫I feel the fire flare alight inside me)
INFO
character name: Lana Rivera
age: 24
general notes: Lana's intersex - she wears clothes to hide it and tries not to let the fact get out too far, but it's something to be aware of if you're observant/close to her a lot. She also has a bunch of miscellaneous fight/burn scars, the latter being in kind of weird places sometimes.

PERMISSIONS
touch:
platonic? yes, though she's not a touchy person and will likely make a fuss about her personal space being invaded out of nowhere.
romantic? yes, if by some miracle she ends up leaning that way. Again, she's definitely preferential to initiating or otherwise knowing it's happening.
sexual? yes, but she's going to ICly fight that like hell. And if she doesn't want it, it will be made brutally, painfully clear.
violence:
can we fight? yes, if you give her the chance she's likely to instigate it even.
can i injure your character? yes
to what extent can i harm your character? Anything that'll heal within a few days is fine. If you want to end up with a removal/mangling of limbs/loss of senses or something, please talk to me first. If she can fully recover eventually, it'll pretty much be fine, but please ask first!
triggers:
inherent content warnings: She's intersex, and it's fairly fantasy intersex. She's also really loose-lipped when it comes to frank statements of others' personalities and issues, so she might just blurt out something problematic.
MORE NOTABLY, her fix is literally "trials by fire" so she's likely to have the occasional flame-based injury, even if it doesn't come up as something she does in logs proper. HAND INJURIES are likely to be the most common, with other extraneous limb injuries being secondary. Worse injuries are possible, but not likely unless the result of an event.
She has some minor physical and more prominent mental abuse in her past that's shaped her into who she is today, which will probably come up in introspection and occasionally talk.
She's also incredibly violent when she wants to be - while she's of the idea that people should be 'saved', she's not above murder. This is worsened when she feels a lot of envy toward someone.
ic issues to avoid? She's a powderkeg of IC issues, but I'm 100% good with playing them out. She'll fight talking about most of them, mind.
character-specific triggers/squicks? None, unless you count her kind of 'you make me sick' reaction to people with working relationships/families...
Also, she reacts somewhat badly to talks about church and/or redemption.
are any character-specific triggers/squicks strictly off-limits? none!
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OOC:
player name:
Ceti
player age: 27
player contact: [plurk.com profile] heliel
current characters: N/A
ac link: N/A

who invited you: Remibutts

Feel the fire flare alight inside me, higher so I can see )
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Cɪᴛɪᴢᴇɴ Rᴇɢɪsᴛʀʏ
name: Lana Rivera
age: 24
appearance: Tall, dark, and intimidating. Lana has short violet-black hair she wears in a bob, red eyes, and pretty features that combine with her height to make her appear somewhat haughty. Her clothes are usually sharp and clean, except where needed for her jobs.
occupation: mercenary for hire specialising in sex offenders/unsavoury types
residence: Link

fix: Literal trials by fire. It started as a bizarre take on the Corinthians 3:15 passage “If anyone's work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, but only as through fire” and became, especially as her belief dwindled, a way to repeatedly and obsessively prove her ability to withstand some physical iteration of that proverbial fire. Of course, repeatedly walking on hot coals or sticking one's hand in a flame has a profound physical effect on a person, so Lana eventually had to turn to something a little less self-endangering. What she found, in the end, was spicy food. Mildly spicy does nothing for her, if it wouldn't make the average person flinch, she doesn't care about it.

permissions: Here!

record: Lana was raised in a church-run orphanage. There, she was taught virtues and hard work, and that those who believe will find salvation, no matter their trouble – even someone of mixed sex, like herself, deserved the rewards of belief. For a time, she believed with all her heart that was true. The one woman who spoke frequently with her continued to preach these things, showing her kindness and love and tolerance.

Of course, all things come to an end. A child has the capability of bouncing back from ridicule and poor treatment, but only for so long. By the time she was ten, the violence, lies and name-calling were too much to continue to endure. Patience was a virtue – but it was one she no longer possessed. What she did possess was strength, and in a fit of anger, she beat down every last one of them.

When the church asked why she had done such a thing, she replied simply “lying is a sin, and I was tired of theirs.” The Sisters worried that her lack of remorse was the beginning of something more dangerous, and upon consulting their group, decided Lana should be moved to a more suitable orphanage. One designed for more dangerous individuals.

It was a mistake, of course. Placed in a home where the only nice treatment you got was in the sermons you listened to, Lana’s hatred began to grow. For herself, for the boys and girls she was around. For the Sisters, for her only friend – who hadn’t stood up for her when she was made to leave. Even at this new orphanage, only one person stood up to help her. Others cited a multitude of reasons – as she progressed into her teenage years, Lana became more aloof and cold, isolating most of her potential friends before they’d even spoken more than once.

In helping a “cold demon” like Lana, that person took as much abuse as she herself did. More, even, and in the end, they ended up hospitalised. She visited the hospital frequently at first, and even then was told about the power of belief and salvation. Her faith was fractured, though, and eventually she stopped coming because she couldn’t stand to see her only friend there, clinging to belief as a reason to continue on. That, and her perception was too keen, her words too frank. She saw how much her friend was hurting because of her, and wanted it to stop. So she withdrew.

Their relationship never quite recovered. Once the hospital stay had ended, Lana quietly avoided any contact with that person, and watched from the distance when their life finally started to improve. So, she was the problem. She alone caused harm for others, physically or otherwise. If that was the case… if that never changed, then how did she deserve salvation?
Over the remaining time in the orphanage, she grew to hate herself and her frank nature. There was no making friends, no real smiles. When she saw through others’ lies, she said so – loudly. Or, on some occasions, she tried to go back to her teachings of patience and acceptance, tried to allow them a chance to redeem themselves, or perhaps to redeem her. Each time it didn’t happen, she sank deeper into the idea that she couldn’t be saved.

At eighteen, she finally left the orphanage and started out on her own. Finding a job wasn’t difficult – in a world like theirs, the violent and cruel were a hot commodity and she could offer both without a second thought. Her only kindness was spent on animals, creatures she felt deserved it far more than the humans that tossed her aside like a broken doll.

The reputation came soon thereafter. “Dark devil Lana.” That was who she became. “Dark devil Lana,” a woman who used her unique body as a weapon to seduce as well as to ‘excuse’ her brutality. It was all fine, of course. Being like that made people hesitant to get anywhere near her, and when they did, her frank commentary on their actual intentions usually sent them running. It was all well and good – however hard she clung to the belief that she could one day be saved by faith, could one day come to say she loved herself and someone around her, she wasn’t banking on it anymore.

Certainly, she had a handful of acquaintances. In her line of work, it was a necessity – information gathering wasn’t her forte thanks to her unapproachable nature, for example. Not one of those she’d consider a friend, though, and there was - is - no doubt in her mind that they would stab her in the back if they had a reason or chance.

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